
On this eve of Christmas, as I reflect on why I struggle so much with the holiday season, I came across a passage in a book that seems to sum it up:
"The world we have created, in our culture, is essentially an addicted world. Addicted to control, to power, to materialism. The addiction dictates the lie that the more 'matter' we accumulate, the happier we'll be. But then the human being inside goes crazy and says, 'Well, if you've got power, I'll have power, too. I will eat and drink and have drugs and have sex, everything I want, I will have.'"
"Rather than surrendering to the mystery of the soul, to the Divine that exists in all of us, we try to reach our god or goddess through more
money, more
sex, more
chocolate, more
perfectionism."This is the opposite of surrender to God. Because the feminine spirit has got to be recognized. She will kill you if you don't. ... We must learn to forgive our imperfections, to accept our human limitations, to accept ourselves as we are." -Marion Woodman, in
What We Know So Far -- Wisdom Among Women, In Their Own Words
I am so happy to be able to spend time this holiday with friends and family who have been there in good times and bad; who have not judged, but helped in times of need. I am incredibly thankful for the overwhelming kindness and generosity of friends and complete strangers who have come into our lives this year.
I am so proud of our little girls who are growing up so fast and soaking in the world like giant sponges, absorbing everything life has to offer. Girls who are so giving and kind and still love to roughhouse, play catch, and throw themselves into snow, sledding for hours upon hours.
I am blessed to have my husband as a partner on this roller coaster of life, going along the twists and turns, hills and valleys of these ten years. He makes me laugh and works so hard to keep our cars on the track, while taking the time to give us the most valuable hugs and love every day, no matter how busy or tired he is.
Wishing you and yours the very happiest of holidays, merriest of Christmases, and many surprises and smiles in the new year.